Hello fellow MM'ers. I'm in a place in life I have never been before. I have lost loved ones and friends before, and feel I grieved pretty well, and in a healthy way.
This time feels different.
We lost our 4 month old son last night. He stopped breathing, myself, the paramedics, as well as the doctors at the hospital did CPR for an hour and 45 mins but he never responded. So he's gone now. I don't have my lil guy anymore and don't know how to deal with it.
I have had to repeat the story of how he died no less than 50 times in the last 16hrs to cops, detectives, doctors, family members, friends etc. I break down every time I have to utter the words that he's dead, or not with us etc.
My whole life I have been able to be strong for others in dealing with their loss, and I'm trying to be strong for my girl, and her kids and my daughter, but it's hard to put on the iron mask and not break down with them.
Just need some words of encouragement, understanding, advice, whatever.
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